saying good-bye is so damn hard.  if this is any indication of whats to come during graduation in a mere 8 months, i'm going to die. 

i hate good-byes....parting is such sweet sorrow my ass...shit...its f*cking hard to say good-bye...

first in new york...now in berkeley and newark.  blaaaaaaah.  i'm gonna miss just randomly calling ya'll and engaging in crazy, non-sense chatter in middle of the night. 

will miss everyone.  and thanks to all those who came out to chill before our departure!  it was nice seeing everyone together again! 

new york city OH SO DEFINATELY KICKS los angeles' ass.  BIG TIME! screw wanting to live in la.  i'm all for nyc!  muahaha.  i can now officially get the poster of the new york city skyline and not feel like an idiot since i would have never been..until this past tuesday. kekeke. 

so apparently, this is what i'veconcluded based on what has been brought to my attention recently...

1.  i speak wack chinese (mandarin)

2.  i am volumptuous, voluminous, fat, thick, "strong" (in not a good way strong), and any other word you can use to describe basically ONE thing...FAT. 

i am sad.  i think i have a lot of self-improvement work to do...

okok.  muahaha.  here's an interesting story about yesterday's trip to s.f...

so you know...its been pretty warm out lately and i decided to dress cute for a day since i never do anyway.  and so yesterday, i wore this really cute pink tank and apparently...kinda short white skirt.  it was all dandy and so me and bkptc headed out to s.f. because i needed to pick up my visa from the consulate for taiwan.  so anyway...all was swell until i got out of the bart station on montgomery street.  hahaha it was sooooooo friggin windy in s.f. and man, it was no good...NO GOOD!!!  ahahah.  the entire time, i had to walk around, holding down my skirt so that it doesn't blow up in the wind and it was actually quite hard because its a short skirt and so you had to hold it strategically so you cover all areas of your ass! ahahaha.  oh man...and so yes, that was how i was walking around s.f. all day. hahaha.  more to the story...

so i get to the consulate...and the lady who was helping me was like, awww...you look really cute today...then she makes a comment to her coworker, and might i add, her male coworker (-/+ 43 years of age) and says, did you see her?  do you see how good she looks?  and THEN she proceeds to tell me to stand up and do a turn for them!   ahaha.  of course i denied (absolutely refused) but she kept on insisting and by this time, her coworker was like its ok...its ok...haha...it was pretty embarrassing.  i mean, i'm flattered and all, but first off, there were like hella other people in the room and they were now all staring at me and moreoever, the male coworker was helping this other dude and they were both like..uh..i don't think its a good idea. hahaha.  i mean..ok, maybe if i was 10 or something, it'd be ok..but i'm friggin 21. ahahha.  NO GOOD!

ahaha...and so here i am, holding down my skirt with both hands and my tank top strap kinda falls off my shoulders while we were crossing a busy street.  i couldn't really pull the strap back onto my shoulders and so i asked bkptc if he could but it comes out all wrong...ahahaha and at the time, i didn't even realize what i said and why it sounded so akward. hahaa i was all, "hey bk, can you lift up my shirt?"  he took a while before he actually did and all the while, i was like thinking..umm..helloo...my tank top is like...slipping off...why is he friggin hesitating...ahaha and then i realized what i said and how bad it sounded. hahaha.  stupid stupid stupid...."can you help me with my strap"..or even..."can you put my strap back" on would have been a lot better than "can you lift up my shirt". haha

yes, i was quite exhausted by the end of the day

too tired to update..just gonna make a short entry:

nyc in a week

taiwan in 2.5 weeks. 

I'M EXTREMELY EXCITED.  

so...can someone please explain to me why there are 9 towels in my bathroom when there are normaly only 3 people...4 people max in the apartment at once?????  its quite puzzling i tell you.

also..if there are 9 towels...why aren't there 9 toothbrushes then?  i mean really...how many towels does one person need...??? where did these damn towels magically grow from??  i'm a little baffled...and annoyed i suppose...or maybe its just cause its that time of the month.   

weekend was awesome.  got to chill with emery again!!!  yaaaaaaaaay.  hung out with alan a lot...finally got to see marilyn...as well as karen! yayay! hahaha.  went to the arts and wine festival in fremont...twas same old, same old...got some in and out burgers cause i've been craving that like mad...made a few cakes...then proceeded to chevy's with emery later on that night.  took off with an entire togo box of salsa and chips...hahah those are soooo good and i think it tastes so much better because its free! hahaa.  and then headed out to go watch harold and kumar go to white castle.  man...lemme tell you what an awesome movie that was.  i couldn't stop laughing...i'll probably even buy it when it comes out on video. haha thats how good it was!  haha.  and its funny too cause i don't even smoke weed or anything!  everyone should go watch it!

then later on...watched 4 episodes of season 3 alias that mike burned onto a cd for me!  thanks mike!!! i'm way greatful because season 3 just ended and it doesn't come out onto the boxed dvd sets until september 9th and i'll be gone by then.  hahaha .  i love alias. 

so here is a map of the countries i've been to: 


ok..so only 7 countries...but i don't think staying overnight at an airport layover or staying in a country for 2 days counts as visiting the country.  it has to be 3+ days in one specific country, at least for me, to be considered visiting a country.     more to be added to this list by the end of the year.  teehehe

and here are the states I've been to in the U.S....sad, huh? hahaa.  but honestly, why would you need to go to any other state besides these?   

::edit:: okok..after getting some smart comments from the wise-ass kathy...arizona is also NOT worth going to...grand canyon was pretty damn boring but hey...family trip so what can you do? haha.  and no, never been to mexico.  bleh.

seeing how everyone is talking about books lately and which books they have or haven't read, i feel as if i'm still some 5 year old kid watching movies all the time...call me a movie aficionado if you'd like...

still i somehow feel as if i should trade my blockbuster freedom pass for a library card...

...but then i think about it, and i'm AM reading also, yes, actually I am...Electric Circuits by James W. Nillsson and Susan A. Riedel...and i figured that if YOU had to read this book, you wouldn't want to spend the rest of your spare time reading something else when you can be watching something. yes...i love how i justified it all!

good news!  i thought that the spring 2005 semester began January 9, 2005...but today at work, i got the academic calendar and it begins January 18!!!  yay!!!  stupid tracy misinformed me about the actual date when spring semester begins.  psssh.  you know what this mean!!!  more time in asia!!! whoo hoo! most awesomest!  who's down to take a trip to asia over winterbreak???

the strangest thing happens to me today on my way to work...ok..so i guess its my fault for having food in a plastic bag but hey...i can do whatever the hell i want, right?  geez...but anyway, so yeah, i had my spaghetti in a glass bowl today and i didn't have time to put it into a tupperware and so i just covered the top of the bowl with saranwrap and put it in a plastic bag and held it, quite securely might i add since i didn't want it to break and all...and this grungy looking dude who walks past me in the opposite direction tries to grab my spaghetti right out of my hands!  he's like reaching his hands out towards my spaghetti and trying to grab it!    its like wtf  ! lucky for him he didn't touch me cause if he did, i would have had to retaliate and it would not have been pretty.  been kinda under the pressure lately over this gay ass class that i HATE and i've been especially touchy and sensitive over my food lately so yeah.  ugh.  dude...what are wrong with the friggin bums in berkeley?  ugh. and its funny too because when that dude was trying to grab my food, i thought of the time when someone wanted to steal karen's brother's pizza on his way home one night.  blah. 

but then it makes you think, what are wrong with the friggin friends that stay at my place in berkeley as well?  stupid calliea ate my peanut butter yogurt park on saturday night without even asking me or telling me later on that she ate it.  yes, i'm a lil ticked over yogurt park but its the concept of it...i came back to school sunday evening anticipating the sweet flavor of peanut butter melting in my mouth but when i went to the freezer only to see that it was gone...fumes came steaming from my head.  when questioning calliea as to if she ate it or not on aim, she said "oh yeah, sorrie...hahaha...gtg bye".  again, wtf???  thats not cool...not cool at all.